Summer

I don't do it on purpose.
I don't tell myself to forget about you and let it all fade away.
I never meant to hurt anyone. It always happens, just got to get used to it.
I'm a homebody. I do go out but most of the time i like staying in.
Maybe i don't necessarily like staying in but i need to.
My world is different from most, and i manage.
I don't have that household of two parents, but i do have my mom.
I've been grown and raised this way and this who i finally am.
I haven't forgotten about you, i just have a little work to do.
I don't have the time calling people up siince i don;t have a ride.
Sometimes i find it ridiculous how so many people do, constantly.
I don't enjoy being a burden and i know in reality, that when a person says
it's no big deal, that's a big fat lie.

Those who really care and matter take the initiative to offer, not to ask.
They understand my ways and make do.
They surprise me and they are the type of people i want forever.

This summer i have been productive. More productive than most.
I've gone to work 3-4 times a week, making bank. I've gotten my license and organized the house.
I've had a life by going to the movies, beach, bonfires, shows, fairs and such.
You may think i've disappeared but in reality i've always been here.

I miss many people, but some i do not.
This after high school thing is making me realize who i want to keep in the long run, and who i don't.

Next year will be such a change. Although i will have my freedom due to my car, i have classes 4 days a week and hopefully 2 jobs by then. I need to get my priorities straight and i have no time for nonworthy souls.

I'll be back soon my lovez.